I moved to Austin, TX in the spring of 2013, and it was definitely a time of adjustment and healing for me. I mustered up the courage to leave an unhealthy marriage, and a week and a half later I hitched a ride with my best friend who was already moving to Austin. She needed a travel buddy for a long trip- I needed a change of scenery and a fresh start. I had packed some clothes, toiletries, artwork, and art supplies because that’s how I roll apparently. You can read the post I wrote when I first arrived and the one about healing to get a glimpse of that time if you wish. But soon after, I had stopped writing my blog. So much had happened in between feeling like a phoenix and posting again the other day. A lot more healing was needed than I ever imagined and I had struggled with repairing the damage for several months. My challenge was to rediscover who I was and to “unlock my inner goddess”. Even though finding inspiration to create was hit and miss, my art became a form of therapy for my soul. With these next two paintings, I had a blueprint of what I wanted before I stood at my easel. I had looked to old sketchbooks to rediscover images I had done when I felt whole. It was fitting that I chose images of powerful and magical women during this time; I time when I was trying to regain my own power. I may have had a planned composition in mind before I put brush to canvass, but I still let the painting “choose” how it formed. These works are a combination of free style and formulation.
The Star ~ 2013 ~ acrylic on canvass ~ 30 x 24
This was originally a doodle on my Galaxy Note
What a difference a change in materials can make! And on canvass she became more of a powerful celestial figure…. controlling the chaos rather than being captured by it. The imagery also reminded me of The Star card in a tarot deck, hence the title. This piece was the first one in which I built up a series of washes and drips in the background; a technique I would continue with later on.
One ~ 2013 ~ acrylic on canvass ~ 24 x 24
Here’s the original idea in my sketchbook:
This shows the difference the change in scale can make. She did lose the lunar goddess imagery of the original, but I believe she gained something in the painted version. I’ll explain in just a bit, so bear with me. I had this original sketch, but still wasn’t sure what direction the painting would ultimately take. I liked the contrast of the rectangular forms against the curves of her hair and body. I originally had painted the orbs in her hair to be planets in various bright colors. But I wasn’t feeling it. It was only after I painted the shapes white and silver, did it seem to make sense. She was ONE with the universe; the universal goddess of all. There was now a feeling of calm that the work radiated. She evolved from a lunar deity to a cosmic force. Quite an awesome transformation to inspire me during my personal reconstruction.
So this was my 2nd art period. A short one perhaps, but part of my artistic and personal journey.