Positive Highlights During a Crazy Ass 2016

Wow, it’s December!

2016 has gone by quickly, and simultaneously can’t be over soon enough!  There’s been a lot of crazy crap happening this year for many, it seems, and tensions are high.

But let’s forget about that for a bit…

Think of something that makes you happy, something that you enjoy doing, something makes you smile… anything that has shone some light for you during this challenging year.

I’ll go first 😉

I’m so thankful and appreciative for the friends and family in my life, my PTSD fading out and being practically non-existent the past few months, having the opportunities to be more social and meeting new people, creating art and bringing my sketchbook with me as a habit again, and thinking more positively in general.  I’m grateful for where I am and how I’m feeling.  I am so very happy and looking forward to what’s next for me.

So how about you, my lovelies?  What gives you joy, excitement, and appreciation?  Let’s share a moment together as fellow inhabitants of the Big Blue Ball Drama.  (And yes, I have some joke about blue balls in my head right now because that’s how my mind works.  I know have a problem, but I enjoy it way too much.  Anyway, I was talking about positivity and stuff…)

I spread love and joy to you all… via the inter-webs 😉

(and drawings to be posted soon, I promise!)

 

Time Flies When a Lot of Shit Is Going Down

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(me spinning around because life is CRAZY!)

 

So it’s been months since I’ve last posted and A LOT has happened…

~ Toward the end of August I moved from Austin back to the Northern Kentucky/ Cincinnati Area (look at a map; these places are neighbors)

~ Been staying with my mom which has been interesting, but not as bad as it could be.

~ Started dating my boyfriend for real (being in the same state helped this considerably)

~ Have been spending time with my boyfriend’s children and getting to know them and becoming one of their “adults”.

~ Spent months looking for an office administration job with no luck, so started working retail.

~ Quit the retail job because I realized that it had been 15 years since working such a position and I was too old for this shit.  In truth it was a lot stress on my anxiety disorder with little pay in return.

~ Luckily I have sold a couple of paintings and finished a commission piece to get some money coming in.

~ I am currently working on a second commission which has been more slow going and difficult than I’d like, but I’m starting to the light at the end of the tunnel.

~ I have been hand making my holiday presents because of the money issues, BUT I’m also crafty and like to make things for people

~ And during all of this, I managed to finalize my divorce and get my last name back!

Yeah… busy times indeed.

So, what now?

This last half of the year has been an exercise in being calm and carefree despite not having a plan or income coming in.  This has been huge for me.  I have been known to be a chronic worrier.  I have done massive inner work and it’s starting to show.  I have been able to remain pretty positive even without steady money because things seem to work out.  But I’m tired of living with family and not only want my own space to live, but an art space to create masterpieces as well.  I really would love to be able to be an artist for a living and/or win the lottery.  The odds are pretty slim on the latter, but perhaps not hopeless for the former  My plan is to get professional pics done of my paintings and submit to galleries.  I do have a photographer lined up, but haven’t had the cash so far.  But it WILL WORK OUT.  Right now when not applying to office positions, I have been staying creative and joyful.  And I have to admit, my love is definitely helping in fueling this positivity.

What for the future?

My imagination is active 24/7 and I have many scenarios of what the future may hold.  I guess I’m trying to not get lost in my daydreams and try to make those true.  Painting, drawing, and creating is good.  I would also like to be more social (which is difficult without spending cash) and spread happiness.  I think that is a talent of mine that hasn’t been as active as it needs to be.  It’s like a super power and I’m not doing my civic duty of making joy contagious.  I’m like a virus of love and awesomeness, lol

Anyway, dear readers… that’s where I’ve been this last half of 2014.  I would like to post more in future and not be such a stranger.  More pictures and thoughts to come…